Main Thread WWR III

● Jilaiya ●
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ￜNameￜ Dark Shadow
ￜNɪcknameￜ Dark
ￜGenderￜ Ꮇale
ￜSexualɪtyￜ Straight

ￜBreedￜ Sundown Dragon
ￜᎡankￜ Alpha
ￜBreathￜ Electricity

ￜSɪgnɪfɪcant Oth.ￜ ᙭
ￜYoungￜ ᙭

Tags: Rajani (Sanctuary)

When he had mentioned this being about them, Rajani shook her head to indicate that wasn't the case before swallowing back her own anxiousness. She balled up her fists and sighed. Tension that had already been put into the air seemed suffocating on both sides. She assured him that this couldn't wait before proceeding to explain herself, but this was not an easy feat. Rajani's averted gaze managed to land on him again. Then she forced out the few words, “you’re ... a father Dark Shadow… “ He blinked and parted his lips. The thought crossed his mind but it didn't ever sink in. Yet she was being serious. The man crossed his legs and nibbled at his lip, immediately staring elsewhere, as he found himself unable to grasp this information. As time trickle by, he felt the weight in his chest sink to the pit of his gut at once. It was an anchor of realization. He stared without blinking with his hand at his face. His heart continued to pound against his chest relentlessly as the hair on the back of his neck stood on end for this impending understanding. His mind was left vacant. His thoughts abandoned his mind and scurried off in fear. For a man who closely paid attention to every detail, the world now seemed blended into a dizzying assortment of blurred noises, colors, and silhouettes. He felt he must have gone mad because he had never before been so afar from his senses. The only thing he felt was the pressure from his heart beat, which pulsated through his body and pounded on his skull like a door to try and wake him from his trance. A bead of sweat formulated along his brow. The room seemed cold but his skin was hot to the touch. He flared his nostrils as he sat there with a ghostly expression upon his face. His eyes were large and vacant, and the color in his skin was washed out, leaving nothing but a drained soul. Now the room seemed hot and he seemed cold. His skin, ice to the touch. The only question which crossed his mind was how this had happened, but an assortment of memories washed into his hollowed mind and filled it. He remembered...it all. The room seemed to rock and swirl. He remembered pressing his lips against Rajani's neck. He remembered the hunger. He felt sick."What have I done..." He whispered and choked. Dark Shadow managed to lift his hands as he buried his hands in them and hunched inward, trying to breathe but finding it difficult knowing what had became of that heinous act. He bore his teeth as he clenched his jaw. He whimpered quietly, "Rajani, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry...I did this." How could he ever turn this around? There was nothing he could do. Dark's fingers dug into his temples as he remained stooped over at this realization. One thing was certain though, he couldn't allow anyone to see him like this. The man gulped down his distress. It was one of the most difficult things he had ever done. The color flushed back into his face as he forced himself to think and handle this differently, and he forced himself onto his feet so he could brood elsewhere. He managed to appear more normal now at least, or forced himself too anyway."We...we need to talk about this," Dark said to her. He glanced at the woman and then at his mound of treasures. He walked to the other side of it, and sunk down. He unbuttoned his coat and swung it aside, relieved to feel the cooling breeze on his button down shirt instead. The man laid back, rested down in the gold with his legs extended out, his head tilted at the ceiling, and his hands loosely held together. He felt the throbbing of his heart and the twisting of his gut. None of this seemed real anymore. He didn't know what would happen or what this would intel. All he could do was wait for Rajani to join him as he gazed up at his lair's ceiling, attempting to wrestle with his plans and fears. He never would have thought this would happen. 'I just hoped that day would be left in the past and forgotten,' he thought to himself, 'I'm not prepared to for this...I'm probably the least qualified to raise children.' Well, that is if he raised them. There was a possibility that Rajani would raise them, and he had the opportunity to leave well enough alone. Dark Shadow chewed at the thought.

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ￜNameￜ Dark Shadow
ￜNɪcknameￜ Dark
ￜGenderￜ Ꮇale
ￜSexualɪtyￜ Straight

ￜBreedￜ Sundown Dragon
ￜᎡankￜ Alpha
ￜBreathￜ Electricity

ￜSɪgnɪfɪcant Oth.ￜ ᙭
ￜYoungￜ ᙭

Tags: Rajani (Sanctuary)

Her apathetic words echoed in his void of thoughts, "there is no point in wishing for things to be different, we can’t change the past, only live with it.” Oh how he wanted to think that. It was a truth he was normally able to accept, but not here. She could stay composed with this information, but he was confounded by it. It was as if someone had just delivered him the killing blow and he was realizing his life was at an end. Perhaps that seemed dramatic, but death was more of a friend to Dark than this. If she only knew...oh how he wished she did. He wanted to stand up in his rage and confess all that he had done in the past to shed light on why this was so disastrous to him, but he couldn't bare to see her reaction. She would never look at him the same again. To her, he was Dark Shadow, the Alpha of the sanctuary. This was a title he received only later in life, but one he received without wanting. The man allowed himself to soak in this anger and let it rest, deciding it would be better to keep quiet. The storm that wanted to build inside him quieted down. His thoughts, and even his anger left him. Dark Shadow's aggrieved silver eyes rested upward as the coins of his mound clinked and jingled when Rajani took her seat beside him. Her focus rolled up to the ceiling as well, and a sad sigh left her lips. She leaned back to rest in the mound with him, something that was all too familiar. It was unfortunate this moment was under such dreadful circumstances. She asked him what he wanted to do. Dark Shadow pondered for a moment. He took some time to think so he could properly formulate a response, but his mind was still clouded. He confessed in his frustration,"I don't know. For the first time in my life...I am completely unprepared. I don't know what I want to do." Though his face appeared as though he was taking this rather well, now that he had laid down to process it, he felt differently from the inside. His soul was still restless. Occasionally there was peace and he could breath and say that he had this under control, but another torrent of fear barreled at him and told him otherwise. There was only one explanation of this. And it would cost him the last thing he had which was his dignity and pride, but he did anyway. "I'm terrified..." He whispered. The grief in his voice trailed like someone who had just lost a loved one. It wasn't what she thought though, he had a reason that pulled the strings of his fear. It was his personal accounts, something Rajani, nor anyone, understood about him. The term 'father' meant something very different to her than it had to him. Everything he ever knew were the fangs of a cruel dragon who inflicted pain on anyone his sights =set upon. When he thought father, he saw piercing yellow eyes glaring at him from the total darkness of his born world. He heard shrieks of newborn dragons, and listened to the downpour of oozing blood. Dark Shadow wasn't scared of children. He was scared of something else...and that something else was in him, and it would be in his offspring too. It was a disease, a genetic virus. He did not want to be that man, and now he was one step closer to it. He snapped back into that mindset once, and had taken Rajani. If he snapped into it again, he was afraid he would take much more. Dark inhaled through his nose and exhaled through lips. He felt his nerves softening the more he rationalized his thinking. His mind was beginning to clear now that he could breath somewhat easier, and he was glad for that. "Judging by the time, I can assume that they have been laid by now, and you must have them kept where you are currently residing. For the time being that might be the safest route, but I'm not sure that's for the best with all of this in light. These dragons are hunting you down for revenge and if they find where you live, our young will be killed or used against us. We have to keep them a secret, Rajani, they may depend on it." He said. "I think we should move them for the time being, ideally someone not in the sanctuary...and if possible, a human or elf. It pains me to say it, but they won't be found in the hands of someone other than our kind. I don't know of any trustworthy elves of humans off the top of my head, but if you do, we may need to go to them. If not, a loner dragon would be the best second course of action. They can't stay here with this threat, and I recommend they don't stay with you." He knew she may not take his advice well. Even he didn't like putting so much faith on the line, but if the Shadowrend managed to kill them both, whomever they entrusted the eggs to would serve as a second guardian. To Dark, that was imperative. He glanced over to her to see how she would respond.

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ￜNameￜ Dark Shadow
ￜNɪcknameￜ Dark
ￜGenderￜ Ꮇale
ￜSexualɪtyￜ Straight

ￜBreedￜ Sundown Dragon
ￜᎡankￜ Alpha
ￜBreathￜ Electricity

ￜSɪgnɪfɪcant Oth.ￜ ᙭
ￜYoungￜ ᙭

Tags: Rajani (Sanctuary)

The coins rattled as Rajani stirred and sat up from her laying position, troubled by what he had admitted. He couldn't imagine what she was thinking when he had said it, and it was enough to get her to raise. Rajani gazed down at him with bewildered look, but her words were docile as they entered his ears. "What? I don’t understand… W- why?” He continued to stare up at the ceiling, as if avoiding her gaze. His lips were formed on a line as he chewed at his thoughts while the silence rustled between them. She hadn't pried at the subject, only nodded at his suggestion, which benefitted the situation more than if she would have inquired more about it. Not a single explanation left his lips. All he managed to say was, "if I told you...", then he hesitated. There was a slight gravelly edge to his voice but he forced himself to continue. "...you wouldn't see me the same way." Dark Shadow stared at the abyss above him, relaxing his breathing after a last inhale and allowing his concerns to fizzle and fade. He didn't know if that would elicit a response from her or if she would allow herself the bliss of ignorance, but he was concerned with her knowing. She was already taking in more than she wanted. Rajani tightened her jaw to force down the idea of giving their eggs away to someone else. It wasn't exactly the easiest suggestion, he admitted, and he wasn't exactly all up in arms for it either. But his reasoning was enough for her to nod in understanding, despite her instincts which screamed 'no' at her; Dark Shadow felt a twinge of admiration for it. Her breathing quivered and Rajani tucked her legs toward her chest and bundled up while her mind wrestled with what was to come. She accepted the idea, though reluctantly. It was about as easy as gnawing off her own wing. She claimed that she knew of someone who could help however, and the fear crept back into her face. The concern and apprehension of newfound motherhood was a powerful drive to fight against. Dark Shadow found his gaze resting on her with empathy and he shuffled and sat up to observe the discomfort that was beginning to show, her breathing was erratic and her mind was properly whispering the doubts in her ears. She breathed in to quiet the worry and calm herself before asking when he wanted to do this. The man paused for a fleeting moment to allow her the pleasure of breathing easy before responding. "I think we should move them as soon as possible. The longer we wait, the more at risk they are and the harder it will be to sneak away undetected. If you know where to find this individual, I'll accompany you when you leave..." It was not the easiest thing to hear under such short notice. Not only would she have to give them up, but she would have to give them up soon. Dark Shadow's brows puckered remorsefully. He eyed the ground and then her face again. "And when we manage to solve this, I would like to see them too, if you would allow me that opportunity." He said, referring to the future once they had hatched. His silver eyes flicked away shyly when he felt she may scorn him for that. It was nothing personally against Rajani but against his own pessimistic tendencies when it came down to fathers, especially uncommitted fathers, and their children. Still, the thought of comparing himself to that was difficult to swallow still. He hated to think of himself as one. Dark bent inward as he clasped his fingers and set them at his face to try and breathe easily himself. 'Just look at us,' he thought, 'parenthood really is a world of woes.' He could have chuckled at it if it wasn't so pathetic. They were reeled in their own fears. why couldn't this have been easier? "For what it's worth, I am here to support you. If you need anything, just ask..." He said. "I'm not sure how much I can help but I'll do whatever I can, Rajani." He looked at her with a greater degree of affection.

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ￜNameￜ Dark Shadow
ￜNɪcknameￜ Dark
ￜGenderￜ Ꮇale
ￜSexualɪtyￜ Straight

ￜBreedￜ Sundown Dragon
ￜᎡankￜ Alpha
ￜBreathￜ Electricity

ￜSɪgnɪfɪcant Oth.ￜ ᙭
ￜYoungￜ ᙭

Tags: Rajani (Sanctuary)

Rajani allowed the matter to be put behind her, and she assured him that she wouldn't force him to tell her. "When you’re ready to tell me you can." He wondered if that was even possible. Was there a time when he was ready to explain those things about himself? An even better question is, would she be ready? Knowing that they now had offspring changed their relationship now, for the better or worse, and Dark wasn't convinced that she - wouldn't be able to accept some truths about him. There was a slim chance he could be wrong, and she would know him enough now for it not to be an issue, but it troubled him. When the conversation shifted onto their young, Rajani still complied to his suggestions. The hesitation danced in her eyes when she forced herself to explain more about the individual they would entrust to raise their offspring for the time being. “I believe I know where he’s at… Though this may not sound very reassuring to you, he is a good dragon… he’s just an alcoholic is all. When I was ill, Krogoth helped me reach the sanctuary after caring for me in an old barn outside the village. I’m sure we can find him at the nearest bar…” That was not exactly the sort of dragon he would expect Rajani to trust so willingly. An alcoholic, atop of other things considering he was a lone wanderer. The man puckered his brow as if to wrestle around with the idea, but as before, he allowed himself to trust this 'Krogoth' if Rajani was so inclined to do trust him. The woman assured him that he was a good man, and Dark wouldn't object to that until this man proved him otherwise. He looked to her quietly and nodded as a sign that he gave his consent to the idea. "If that's who you chose, then I'll agree to it,", he uttered. When Dark had dipped his head and asked to see his offspring later, some confusion swept across Rajani's pale blue eyes when she had taken in his question, but if she was confused, then she clearly she was not understanding the full front of what was going on. “Though I do not understand your reluctance to see them now, I would never keep you from seeing them whenever you felt the want to,” she said. A "hmm" escaped the mans lips upon hearing her answer, sensing that they weren't quite on the same page. He replayed her response in his head again, but she was misunderstanding. Dark knew why though. He was dancing around the subject, and she wasn't asking. He was relieved to hear that she would allow him to visit whenever he wanted...but he wasn't inclined on visiting...That was his fault, he realized. He hadn't expressed his side fully to her and she was thinking he would be accepting visitations. Granted, he had no concept of how to handle this either. The man was well versed in every other thing, but he never fully grasped parenthood. How could he? Sundown dragons never paired up, not in the sense that dragons do here, and unfortunately, that was going to cause a wide variety of problems if things weren't laid out straight; he needed to do his explaining sooner rather than later. She was partially right in her assumptions though, he had thought about having Rajani care for the children alone, but that was a fleeting thought that moved on without a second glance. Now that he was able to reason with himself, he had made up his mind, and he knew exactly what he was going to do. It was at this point Rajani looked at him, with her concerns shifting into warmth to his assurance that he would provide anything she needed. She didn't smile but she didn't need to for him to read her expression. She didn't know how much he was willing to provide her with though, but he was sure to tell her soon. The coins rustled as the woman rose to her feet, giving him thanks and telling him that it "meant a lot" to her. Her head turned as she faced the other direction, “should we leave together or separately? I feel like leaving separately would rouse less curiosity.” There was a sensible way of answering, but that was not what he had in his head. He felt he needed to explain everything here and now, and try to lay out whatever he could. If there was ever a time to do it, it was now. Dark stood when he made up his mind, the coins rolling down the mound like sand. He came to Rajani as she was juggling her thoughts, and he reached out and he kissed her head slowly. As he pulled back for his affectionate gesture, his heart drummed wildly in his chest. He took a weary breath. Then he answered her and allowed his explanation to flow from his lips with more reasoning than before, "leaving separately would arouse less curiosity, but I'm afraid I'm not going to allow that anymore and I've made up my mind about it...I'm not letting you out of my sights again, Rajani, not even for a moment. The clan could be curious of us leaving together, but I don't care for it...you are an elite assassin and I am a sundown. If anyone in this organization of dragons try to follow us, they would be a damned fool to do so." Dark Shadow found himself smiling faintly. His eyes rested upon hers, and he took her hand in his and murmured, still feeling the pressure weighing in on his mind, but he knew what had to be done. "I apologize if I appeared a bit indecisive with you...I wasn't sure what I would do knowing that I now have the responsibility of being a father, but, you have to know that I am not letting you do this alone. Let me be clear with you, I am not letting you raise them alone. As far as I'm concerned, this is more important than what happened in the past, so I'm not letting you go Rajani. 'Seeing' them, meant a lot more than just 'seeing' them, but I've been tiptoeing around that. I'm terrified of becoming a father...that's my problem. I'm scared of myself, not them...and if I manage to do something wrong or slip up, I give you permission to do whatever is necessary to stop me. I won't tell you much, but I feel like I have to tell you this..." Internally, he choked on the wall preventing him from speaking. But, she needed to know if this was what he was going to do. He blew down that barrier with a heavy sigh, which expelled out through his lips. Dark Shadow allowed his thoughts to escape his body as the hairs on his arms prickled from his fears and doubts. He continued to hold her hand as his stomach knotted inside him. "I grew up killing my own kind from the moment I was born, and that's what I'm afraid of. My species of dragon are cannibals by nature...my father was ruthless in that regard. He treated his mates as well as his children. Seeing myself as a father, I feel as though I'll become that, and I'm afraid...I have long since left this part of me in the past and I don't regard myself as dangerous. I don't know if you knew this but I had a mentor who worked to train me out of those habits, and she succeeded, though it was grueling for her as well as for me. Placing me here as Alpha was her idea. But the point being made is that I can control that side of myself but I need you to know as a precaution...incase I can't. If that ever happens," tears shimmered in his eyes but he kept his voice from breaking. "If I ever lunge at my own young, you need to do whatever is in your power to step in between them and me. At the worst scenario, kill me...I am not prone to doing it, I assure you. If I was that dangerous that often, my mentor would have never entrusted me with this authority, but I reverted the day before you left, and you know what happened. Before then, I didn't think I could ever turn back to that self, but that day proved me wrong. So if it happens, stop me. You'll know if I'm not myself..." He said, allowing him the opportunity to breathe out his tension and change the subject. "But I'm staying with you through the thick and thin of it. If possible, I would like you to move in with me once this is settled," he muttered. "But it's your choice..."

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ￜNameￜ Dark Shadow
ￜNɪcknameￜ Dark
ￜGenderￜ Ꮇale
ￜSexualɪtyￜ Straight

ￜBreedￜ Sundown Dragon
ￜᎡankￜ Alpha
ￜBreathￜ Electricity

ￜSɪgnɪfɪcant Oth.ￜ Rajani
ￜYoungￜ 2

Tags: Rajani (Sanctuary)

Her initial reaction was visibly clear on her face. Rajani lips parted in a bereft manner, her pale blue eyes were misted over in confusion, and her brows lifted in uncertainty. It was an assortment of reactions the man had expected due to his negligence of explaining how he felt. Her confusion began when he had kissed her forehead, sending a void of emptiness in her expression when she looked at him, not quite grasping what he had said. Even as she explained it, it took her time before she was able to sift through her own preconceived notions to what he was planning to do. And then, she saw it. A trickle of hope and gladness emanated from her face as she took in all he said, listening now with a clearer mind. He hoped that his assurance would provide her with comfort and a newfound hope to continue through this side by side. She was following along, though she lingered in shock from hearing this all come from him personally. As she listened, he came upon his past and what his species had done. A knot had formed in his throat about the time when he expelled some of his secrets to her and finally opened up. He had never shared this with another. It was a secret so precious and valuable that he could not anticipate or predict a reaction. What would she say? What would she think of him? He lightly caressed the top of her hand with his thumb as the anxiety built within him. He watched every thought flicker in her eye, and every realization, trying to read them but his fear prevented him for doing so. He knew that this was up to her to decide and for him to wait and see. The deafening silence in the room lingered for a while longer as the man nibbled at his lip. He breathed in, his shoulders rolling back before dispelling the air through his lips as he waited and allowed the stillness sink into her core, along with everything. Perhaps she wouldn't be able to process the fullness of it yet- how could someone easily accept something this severe out of someone they once loved? Time would only tell...
When she was able to fully chew on the idea of his crimes, Rajani's eyes filled with tears and began to trickle down her cheeks. She wept quietly before smiling up at him and saying that she hadn't seen him as a monster, despite all he had said. "I see you as you are before me… I know what you can become I’ve had a glimpse, but I do not hold that against you… But, if there comes a time that you do in fact go after our children I’ll do anything to keep you from them, even if that means… “ choking on her words from the very thought of it, “Ancients forbid, I have to kill you.” She brushed a stray tear from the side of her face, glancing down at the floor to breathe easy before telling him that she would like to move in when the time came. Dark Shadow hadn't hesitated. He had his arms around her in a comforting embrace, unable to look upon her crying face without holding her close...it was something he had longed to do again since the day she had left. His arms were hugged around her sweetly. His concerns were released while his heart overflowed with joy and sympathy. He smiled softly to himself and whispered beneath his breath, "you don't know how much I've missed you..." Dark ached internally, something he hadn't realized until he held her. Even the longest of moments would not be sufficient in his mind, but this would do for now. "I assure you that no matter what happens, I will be there. Our children will survive, and they will be returned to us." He gingerly kissed her the side of her face before returning to hold her. He basked in the moment for a minute longer before closing his eyes.